New Year’s Eve

If there’s one thing I will always do, it’s romanticize New Year’s Eve. I always look forward to a New Year, and I enjoy the possibility of new beginnings.

This past year, 2011, has blown by. It has without a doubt been one of the most eventful years of my life. My band put out a record and went on our first tour, and I think we have a lot to look forward to in 2012. Coming back from tour made me feel super inspired, and made me realize just how much I love making and playing music.

My personal life has been fairly tumultuous, as personal lives always seem to be. My parents getting divorced left some sort of imprint on me, but I’m still trying to figure out what that imprint is. My “love life” this year has been me trying to figure shit out and making a lot of poor decisions along the way.

The thing I’ve been thinking most about lately is how I have a tendency to be a chameleon of sorts. I feel like a lot of times I’m trying to blend in with the people around me, and it’s given me a really clouded sense of identity.

I’m not one for “resolutions.” I don’t like the idea of things being black and white, and with resolutions you set yourself up for a pass/fail kind of thing. But I do have some goals or whatever for 2012. I’d like to feel like I am always being myself, which goes hand in hand with figuring out who I really am. I’d like to see more of the people I love. I’d like to spend less time working, which means being fiscally responsible. I’d like to get out of this small town. I’d like to make an impact, whatever that impact may be.

I have a lot of really great people who got me through this year, and I’ll probably be leaning on these people a lot over the next few months. I am too lucky to have the friends that I have, and I need to remind myself of that. I’ll be spending tonight with a lot of them, and I’m looking forward to new memories and experiences with all of them in the new year.